Psychiatric Tissues – The history of iconic noise rock band Arab on Radar – By Jeff Schneider

If you are anywhere close to my age and consider yourself, as I do, a “scene historian” in any capacity I know of one special trick by which you can force yourself to feel something: important, useless, conscripted, powerless, misguided, etc. i don’t know enough about you to tell you which emotion will be triggered – only that I can promise with near certainty that one will manifest.

Ok, here’s the trick – consider the New York Time’s Bestseller Please Kill Me by Legs McNeil and Gillian McCain. Next consider that this milestone in rock journalism as oral history was published in 1996 and the roots of “punk”, according to the text, began to seriously gel with The Stooges and MC5 around 1970-ish. I’m not here to get pedantic or start any arguments about who wore glitter or pushed members of the audience first but rather put things in a temporal perspective: approximately a quarter of a century separates the first stirrings of proto-punk from the appearance of Please Kill Me on bookstore shelves around the world.

If, like me, you were traveling the country around the turn of the millennium to drink in the myriad ways that the worlds of underground art and music positively oozed raw creative energy you know that 1) things were just as vital as the punk scene lionized in Please Kill Me and 2) another 25 years later we’ve reached the perfect moment for a similar all-encompassing document as younger generations of kids, led to the tunes by music blogs, file sharing and algorithms, want all the mythology they can get their hands on.

The largest hurdle is the “umbrella problem” or, in simpler terms what to call it all. “Punk’” was the perfect word for a time and place, no matter how disparate various music under the banner may appear, and with the addition of “chain” and “egg” qualifiers many still claim punk with an “if it ain’t broke why fix it?” philosophy. The total cannibalization of the early nineties Seattle scene by A&R zombies screaming “grunge!” instead of “brains!” has left some reasonable reservations towards Greeks bearing gifts in the form of hyped up new genre names.

The last serious effort of this kind I remember seeing was Electroclash! and it predictably fell on its face. The new trend of constantly naming microgenres – Witchhouse, Sea Punk, Vaguewave, etc. feels more like a self referential joke than a serious marketing attempt – not to say it can’t sell records. I’d still like a catchy name that combines the tolerance for total artistic experimentation with the DIY ethos that colors the most compelling music of this era but may have to satisfy myself with something as simple as “noise rock”.

Anyway we’ve waded impressively far into this review without even a mention of the literary work that inspired it so now’s a good time to mention that Schneider characterizes Arab on Radar as “No Wave” – a more experimental and unapologetically art-inflected movement that predates punk. It is also important to look at Arab on Radar within the diverse experimental music landscape of Providence, Rhode Island. As a San Diegan I met my fair share of underground residents who idolized my hometown due to The Locust and other hardcore acts but in my own case I felt a special magnetism toward Providence.

If I’m going to be super technical things started for me with The Talking Heads, although they weren’t technically a RISD band, but Shepard Fairey would be a less tenuous starting point. By 1994 he’d moved to San Diego and assembled a powerful street team from my friends and acquaintances in the graffiti subculture. His Obey Giant stickers also began showing the influence of Russian Constructivism and as a dedicated fan I filled detailed notebooks with examples of every new design and color way – catalogued meticulously by location and date of collection.

The moment that turned Providence into a borderline religious pilgrimage destination came when I finally discovered that my favorite hand silk-screened mini comix and noise rock records were all pouring from a shared art space in a former mill called Fort Thunder. I called their phone, got permission from Jim Drain to move in and spent a month narrowly avoiding subjecting the FORCEFIELD performance costumes to my compulsive bed wetting before spending my twentieth birthday at a formative noise show.

I already knew the Arab on Radar guys before this. I saw them in at least two different colors of Dickie’s and hopped in their van earlier that year to ride along to Venice Beach. As a lifelong Californian it was a bit of culture shock watching pasty New-Englanders rub sunblock (I never touch the stuff) above denim cut-offs and buying matching Ray-Ban’s.

Let me put things a different way: every time friends have dragged me to an East Coast beach with grassy dunes and chilling breezes I feel a certain pressure to pretend to enjoy myself despite every single thing about the water, sand and general ambiance feeling “wrong”. Maybe some of the AoR crew were feeling the same and missing their flimsy wooden fences, salt grass and American beach grass.

Shifting back to music the only word for myself at these earlier stages was “fan”. I’ve read of near empty Fireside shows and hostile fans but can tell you with certainty that me and the Belden House crew brought the energy and enthusiasm at every show from 1999 to 2001. 21 and up was a different matter – I might have even gotten a roomie’s ID cut in half attempting to see the guys at The Empty Bottle.

One of my favorite bits was when Schneider placed the aluminum headstock of his Kramer, or other electric guitar with a strong neck, on the floor and swung forward in an arc with his stomach resting against the lower body. Total annihilation of rock instruments and proletariat bodies was the order of the day, not to mention conventional song structures, and I did my part by running at the old bowler’s benches and causing a complete flip when I threw my shoulder into the “ass groove” and launched my ankles skyward.

Besides buying Repopulation Program, You’re Soaking In It! and any other compilation I could find for Load or Providence I scooped up a vinyl copy of Rough Day at the Orifice. Along with the menacing high pitched guitars and frantic, confessional vocals I loved the pink sleeve design on brown cardboard and the tiny bits of hair Mat Brinkman had mixed in the printing ink. It almost looked like Andy Warhol’s prints with glitter or diamonds if the light hit things right.

Schneider talks about not signing with Load in the book and I do wonder how such a move could have panned out for them. Skin Graft, and then later 31G, seemed to be giving their all but would a local label have been able to give more support? As many great bands were on Load but nobody ever sold quite like Lightning Bolt, questions about relative sizes of fish and ponds are reasonable – there’s no easy answer.

It was always a riot throwing Rough Day on the family turntable and hearing my father read out the title in his Arkansas farm boy drawl. You wouldn’t be missing the pun or double entendre if he had anything to say about it – and he always did. Although I may have once and simply forgotten I really do regret not seeing the band with Andrea. I’ve played in only a couple of bands without women and it’s not something I’m looking to repeat.

The energy changes and I’m just not at home in a “guy van”.

My father, himself a complex discharge from the navy for insubordination, also got a real kick out of reading out the dirty song titles and lyrics. I went to Mr. Pottymouth’s poetry reading at Quimby’s and never felt too offended by the subject matter. When Joey Karam from The Locust started Le Shok with that one explicit record cover it always felt like they were low key biting AoR’s schtick – in a way that wasn’t especially shocking.

Maybe Eric Paul, aka Mr. Pottymouth, would cringe at the comparison but in recent years I’ve always thought of his former stage persona as a living avatar of Quagmire from Family Guy. (in terms of repressed New England sexuality, not his poetry skills). I actually wanted to talk about the working class and, for want of a better word, “townie” aspects of Arab on Radar. Schneider makes it clear that he and his band mates came up around Federal Hill, had family members connected to former mayor Cianci’s “Old Providence” and never quite fit in with the RISD and Brown students.

From my view across the country I never saw things looking too cliquey but there were clear cultural delineations between bands: On the “townie” side sits Sub-Pop signed Six Finger Satellite, Arab on Radar, Dungbeetle, Landed, Olneyville Sound System, White Mice, Curmudgeon Clique, perhaps 25 Suaves and assorted J./Jon von Ryan projects. On the art school side we start with Les Savy Fav, then Black Dice, Mudboy, Lightning Bolt, FORCEFIELD, Lazy Magnet, Kites, SHV, Russian Tsarlag and more recently Human Beast.

I don’t know enough about the early lounge/exotica movement to place anyone and even my favorite Providence folk duo, The Iditarod, is as much of a mystery in this regard as Amoebic Ensemble. It’s hard to know every tiny detail about a city you only slept in for three weeks – even if you’re as big of a nerd as I am. The class struggle bits are not to talk shit but instead an overly simplified attempt to pick Arab on Radar apart and see what made them tick.

The death of the trades, the entitled attitudes of art school kids and a constant feeling of “impostor syndrome” in the world of experimental music could account for some of the shoulder chips but not all of them. If Schneider is to be believed good old fashioned sexual frustration filled the balance. Even with a national roadmap to the finest purveyors of extreme European pornography and a religiously followed rotation as to who cranks the hog in what order when in hotel bathrooms it seems like nothing could effectively stem the pressure.

Imagine bailing out a sinking boat but the boat is full of mayonnaise that pours down the leg of some terrycloth shorts and you start to get an idea. Sometimes the simple act of release takes on the dimensions of a Herculean Labour. In these sections Schneider starts to almost read like Peter Sotos and it’s entertaining enough. In contrast to the old saying that “an army travels on its stomach”, Arab on Radar appear to have done so on their nutsacks.

Despite the constant urges Jeff and his band mates behaved respectfully to any female artists, promoters and traveling mates they accompanied except for one exception. The Need was an experimental metal band from Olympia, WA who happened to be lesbians and something caused Jeff to view them as a band “that put identity above music” and even blame them for the disappearance of free thought in the music underground.

Perhaps being a little younger, growing up in California instead of New England and identifying as a feminist my whole life shifted my views on lots of this stuff. I never once considered The Need an overtly political or identity centered band. They were a shredding guitar band with innovative upright drum parts and vocal melodies and the fact that I wouldn’t get attacked for my colorful eye makeup watching The Need but would seeing death metal heavyweights Nile (ironically if you know how ancient pharaohs wore makeup) was simply a bonus.

It sounds like someone from AoR was defacing The Needs’s posters when touring ahead of them and a small verbal altercation ensued. For those that didn’t tour in 99/2000 posters in a venue was all the promo you had unless a weekly ran an ad or blurb. Schneider is a therapist now so maybe he’s made some progress on this.

Most ironic is that while complaining that The Need were “political” and “pushed identity”, Arab on Radar did the exact same thing in a different way. As a working class band in a scene dominated by art school kids their plumber style uniforms were a statement of class struggle and a clear message that they held more in common with the workers stocking green rooms with band’s rider cheese and veggie plates than the entitled would-be “rock stars” throwing this shit out the window.

Enough of that. Let’s break this rock music autobiography down in terms of what the public expects in books of this type:

1) SEX – all the frustrated masturbation you could dream of. One band member suffers family loss and drowns the emotions in all kinds of women. I thought it odd that Schneider hints at every member dallying with a fifteen year old girl but himself – did he abstain or is he being discrete for his wife’s sake? Glass houses and all… Some band business conducted in peep shows and strip clubs is vividly described.

2) DRUGS – mostly absent. Plenty of weed is smoked and sometimes it fucks with guitar playing. If the hard stuff shows up I blinked and missed it. Probably for the best – the last thing the kids need is another Please Kill Me telling them they can’t be authentic punks unless they pick up a needle but if you only read rock bios for dope and coke stories this ain’t for you. Someone trips and has a bad time in Dunkin’ Donuts.

3) ROCK N’ ROLL (aka FIGHTING) – According to the book these guys grew up rough and the move to cerebral art rock didn’t slow them down any. Best section for this stuff is definitely an early Marilyn Manson gig in Rhode Island. Disgruntled fans learn how far the opening band (AoR) can be pushed. Not too far it turns out. I seem to have forgotten a knuckle duster or two – more surprises for you when you read it!

Finally, should you read this book? Absolutely! While primarily focused on his own band Jeff clearly cares quite a lot about music and documents 94 – 02 Providence, and the national underground circuit, perfectly. His views on squat houses (and their watered down spaghetti) are hilarious and it’s definitely a fun day or two of reading with no lags. Plenty of super funny random anecdotes out of left field.

The biggest tragedy of the turn of the millennium underground is that everything was being documented on early websites and hosting services like Angelfire. That’s all gone now and lost to the ether. If a service is free you’re the product and our burgeoning scene stopped being profitable for our digital “hosts” a long time ago. Something to remember when entrusting our content to Facebook, X, Instagram and my own reliance on WordPress. Shit, I really need to make a backup.

Anyway it’s a minor miracle that Jeff remembered as much as he did, took the time to write it up and even created a printing house for himself and other voices. These kinds of efforts need to be lauded and supported.

They’re all we have and when Instagram, Facebook and others eventually shutter their virtual doors Psychiatric Tissues will still be a physical book with no wi-fi or web hosting required.

That said, if you are a close AoR fan left lost and angry from the divorce and want to know why Mommy and Daddy don’t love each other no more this is not the book for you. Something ego – Something substance problem – all super vague. Fans closer to the 2002 breakup and failed 2010 reunion might see more in these passages than I could. Eric, the singer’s, testimony might be more detailed but less believable. Couldn’t say.

I prefer to remember how things were that last night I saw them on Oops! Tour in 2002. Knitting Factory in Hollywood! Tried to bring my insane homeless friend but se said it sounded “really annoying!” Arab slayed! Bolt slayed! Locust slayed! Hella’s not really my jam.

Anyway it was a nice note to go out on!

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Tijuana 2014 : “Amor es Palabra”

I caught a ride down to Tijuana with Griffin because he was going to be playing a Sewn Leather show. He said there wasn’t enough room in his tiny RV for LaPorsha but that obviously wasn’t true. I understood. He needed my undivided attention to help calm him down as he drove the RV. It wasn’t even a big big one – it was like a Dolphin, one of the ones you drop in the back of a pickup truck. But Griffin was a high strung little guy – the polar opposite of the terminally placid bearded pot bellied dudes that usually pilot vehicles of that weight class.

Every missed turn triggered a minor meltdown, let alone the whole logistics of crossing an international border, and he needed me to bounce off and redirect the nervous energy. It might not seem like it but I can be pretty Zen in the right interpersonal combinations.

The show was at a gallery called Otras Obras, another TODDPNYC joint. Todd is a bit like Jeffrey Deitch – I’m not sure if I like either of them as people or the changes they create in the art communities I am emotionally invested in but there’s no arguing with their taste. They know what’s cool a hell of a lot faster that any other curators or promoters punching in their weight class. I just don’t love watching the fights. I’m a Benny “The Jet” Urquidez type guy – I love me an underdog.

I don’t know if it was Griffin or Todd P that got El Muertho de Tijuana on the show but I never would have moved to Tijuana if he hadn’t played that night. Balthazar is an incredible artist who should be world famous but I don’t think he can legally travel to other countries. I made the mistake of believing his goth tinged cumbia was more representative of what was happening in Tijuana’s hipster youth culture than it actually was.

My dream was to start a No-teño band – a portmanteau of No Wave and Norteño. My vision was a mariachi version of jazz influenced bands like The Contortions. In my fantasy I would immediately meet young, disenfranchised brass and bajo sexto players who were just itching to let me croon over a darker slowed down version of the oompah music they’d been raised with. The reality was that the kids were into indie rock and electronic dance music. People were friendly, welcoming and receptive enough to my increasingly theatrical while musically minimal style but writing songs in Spanish didn’t magically transform me into the flavor of the moment.

We ended up getting a cheap balcony apartment right next to Parque Teniente Guerrero where El Muertho would play almost daily for adoring crowds of working class families. His KISS style make-up and obvious unapologetic homosexuality gave him unquestionable populist appeal but he wasn’t headlining the bars and galleries I was managing to book shows at. I recorded myself playing La Bamba at a viscerally uncomfortable tempo on my mother’s piano but for most of my new songs I just pulled random instrumentals off of YouTube because I hadn’t found a band. If I had been smarter I would have taught myself guitar or keyboard and taken songs like the one I’m about to type and translate straight to the park:

Amor es palabra, es solo palabra

Pero Amar es trabajo

A la comida no tiene sabor

Sin una poca cebolla y ajo

Porque Estás llorando mi corazon mi vida

Este vez eres cebolla o cuchillo?

Es nuestra amor cierto como una gran cena

O solo es un bocadillo?

(Love is a word, only a word. But to love is work. Concerning food, it has no flavor without a bit of onion and garlic. Why are you crying my heart, my life? This time are you the onion or the knife? Is our love true like a grand banquet or is it only a snack?)

I was super obsessed with main stream Latin stars like José José and Juan Gabriel but unfortunately I never learned basic musicianship and I’m not much of a singer. I do still feel that writing in Spanish set off something special in me musically even if I never learned to speak it properly. Who knows? – maybe my dream No-teño band lives in the forests of Northern California and is just waiting to read these words and e-mail me.

We got into the comfortable rhythms of living on the Mexican side of the border. We lived above a water purification store where we could refill our five gallon bottles but really they were on every corner. I combed the Coahuila Flea Market for an empty propane canister for the water heater and walked ours down there to sell it when we were ready to leave. It’s an unwritten law of Mexican tenant culture that you don’t just leave it for the next person unless they are a particular friend of yours. They’re worth too much money. Once every couple months we would endure a day or two of cold showers until I heard the distinctive jingle of a passing Z Gas truck and ran the empty cylinder down to exchange it.

Our Flame-Point Siamese named Catrick made the move down with us and seemed to take to the Mexican Street Cat life right off the bat. He had already been going to parties around Los Angeles with a stylish blue leather harness from one of the souvenir shops and riding buses and trains with us. We left the window open a crack for him behind the bars and he got used to coming and going as he pleased. We had to go to Los Angeles for a little longer than usual to perform a series of pieces based on the Planets of Classical Astrology at Human Resources.

We left out lots of food and water but Catrick was pissed at us for not bringing him. There was an old mansion surrounded by overgrown weeds, palms and fruit trees at the center of our block – it had an old white Cadillac sitting in it’s yard that Catrick must have felt drawn to because it was the same color as him. He decided to flaunt his independence by moving underneath it and sleeping in it’s shadow. He pretended not to hear me calling him, I knew because I saw his ears twitch, and I had to put food through the bars of the fence to lure him and quickly snatch him home. It became a ritual we would have to repeat every time we left for even a single night from then on out.

There was a family of pigeons living in the outside of the north facing stucco wall, the window looked toward the border and was covered in chicken wire so they wouldn’t move all the way in between human tenants. I watched a few dawns through that window but nearly every dusk. The only way I know how to explain it is that darkness fell differently on the Mexican side of the border – like I could look North and see the exact gradation where it shifted. Something about the way the shadows would stretch out and devour the spaces between buildings. Maybe it’s something as mundane as different styles of architecture and urban planning or maybe it was all in my head.

There was a really nice silver decal of the Seal of Solomon I had bought from Mercado Sonora in Mexico City on the glass – we left it behind when we moved and I’m sure the next tenants hated it if the realtors didn’t just peel it off themselves before showing it to anybody. On hot days the pigeons would stink through the wall and I’d worry that they were giving us little red bird mites through the wall. One of them got in one day and Catrick made a desperate NBA leap for it in the stairwell but barely brushed the tips of it’s feathers with his claws. I let it out and he was furious with me. The next week he dragged in a flattened one as if he’d killed it and I made fun of him:

You’re such a loser dude, everybody knows you’re not a car!”

There was a homeless guy on our block we called Jack Sparrow – he had dark skin and matted black dreads and dressed in layers of grime encrusted rags and old puffy winter jackets worn flat with age. I never saw him speak – not even to himself and never in any language. He had developed a particularly unsavory defense tactic – he would pull down his pants and thrust his filthy, unwashed ass outward while walking backwards like a crab. Everybody instinctually recoiled from it in horror; you always knew he was coming because pedestrian crowds visibly parted on the sidewalk.

One night we were walking on the side of town near the Cultural Center when a tiny striped female cat came darting from behind a book store and urgently cried for our attention. I saw her again on a walk I was taking on my own about a week later and carried her home. We called her Tabby. Of course she was pregnant. She ballooned up like a watermelon and LaPorsha tried to wake me up in excitement the night she had her kittens but I was dead to the world.

I should have woken up.

Tabby’s instincts hadn’t fully kicked in and her babies were tangled up in a mess of umbilical cords she had neglected to sever with her teeth. I was able to cut four of them free but a fifth one had been strangled to death when it’s writhing siblings accidentally tangled the cords around it’s neck. Tabby lay next to the haphazard knot of infants purring contentedly in blissful ignorance that she had just decisively fucked up the delivery. Without my intervention they would have all died or at the very least lost limbs.

I put the dead kitten in a plastic bag and walked downtown to throw it away as far from the apartment as possible. I went to Speedy’s to buy some Oxymorphone, often referred to as the Cadillac of opiates, and Smart & Final to buy some Glorias from the small batch Las Sevillanas brand. I was looking for anything that could help us feel better or at least feel shitty less conspicuously.

Catrick had been neutered young but really stepped up to the plate for the foster father role. He played with the kittens without ever getting too rough and used to sit with his paw resting on top of Tabby’s like a sweet Captain Save-a-Hoe. I gave some of the kittens names but nothing permanent – things like Isaiah and other ones from the Bible I wouldn’t even remember. It was fun for a while but the kittens got old and Tabby started acting feral again – everybody was done with everything.

Catrick climbed onto the spot where our shoulders met in the bed and pissed so it would get on both of us. He was trying to tell us he was ready to be the only cat in the house again. I put Tabby and her kittens in a box and walked to the Park to start giving them away. The first tuxedo boy went with this young guy with a Faux Hawk whose printed polo shirt showed he had one of the better paying than average cell phone store jobs. It dug it’s claws in and buried it’s face in his chest and he said “Vamanos” and walked off into the sunset. I think they were probably quite happy together.

I ended up by the big Cathedral where rows of faith healer’s stalls sold dried herbs, medals of the Saints and pieces of rattlesnake skin and men who appeared to be disabled walked around wearing laminated signs advertising acupressure and miraculous touch. I was able to find what appeared to be good homes for all of the kittens but everybody declined to take Tabby with them even though she was still affectionate with her offspring. Finally I just had an adult female cat in a box and that isn’t the sort of thing you can give away on the streets of Tijuana – not even outside the biggest Cathedral. I slowly walked away from the box and it’s not like she was peeking over the side and watching me or anything. I felt bad but there wasn’t really anything else I could do – at least there was more street food on that block than the one by a bookstore I had found her on.

LaPorsha had a job where she would commute to Los Angeles to work in a BDSM Dungeon but she wasn’t guaranteed sessions every time she made the trip and Black sex workers are just generally undervalued outside of niche situations so it was pretty much a waste of time. I made little scraps of money bringing in cartons of duty free USA Gold cigarettes into Mexico than back into the United States. We only smoked them if we were desperate – we liked the Lucky Strikes with a picture of a dead rat on the box. When friends came down to play shows I would make sure that everybody mules the maximum two cartons for me in both directions. I kept them in my kitchen cabinet and made sure to never cross in either direction without moving and selling cigarettes.

We could have lived down there forever if it wasn’t for the constant police harassment. LaPorsha wouldn’t get it when she was alone because they just assumed she was Haitian but she didn’t like going anywhere alone and I got it constantly. The cops acted like dogs who are only interested in a stick the moment another dog picks it up. We walked Catrick in the park and they came up and accused us of stealing a cat. I carried an old karaoke machine down the street and they accused me of stealing that. It didn’t help that we were on drugs and all of our dreams about Tijuana having a thriving Downtown 81 style Arts scene weren’t working out anyway.

We gathered all of the stuff from our apartment and put Catrick into a carrier and walked back into the United States. I had a side hustle selling promotional copies of the The Order DVD from Matthew Barney’s Cremaster 3 because I had found a huge cache of them at the Amvets in Skyline Hills. I never should have brought them all into Mexico but it saved me a few bus rides when I had to cross over and drop one in the mail.

The Customs guys told me that I couldn’t have them because I was obviously selling them which was illegal and I couldn’t think of a convincing lie. They told me to go back into Mexico and come back without them and I didn’t have any friends by the border to go give them to. There was this new art space that had just popped up in the row of border storefronts. It was closed but I left them in front of it in the hope that somebody who knew what they were might find them and it wouldn’t be a complete waste.

It wasn’t until I was already back in the United States that the idea hit me. I should have said that I played in either Murphy’s Law or Agnostic Front and gave the DVDs away to promote my band because both groups are referenced on the packaging.

All of the Customs Agents look like skinheads anyway but it’s probably like 100 to 1 that they wouldn’t know I was lying.

It doesn’t matter anyway, whatever I didn’t lose then I would just end up losing later.

Even the cat.

[photo from El Muertho de Tijuana Instagram]

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